Friday, September 7, 2007


Lately I have been feeling very restless (for lack of a better word). I know the Lord has a 'project' for me, but I am frustrated because I dont know what it is that I am supposed to be doing. I have a gut feeling, but it seems like such a huge task. Even though I know nothing is to difficult for God, I still have those nagging little doubts. Along with those doubts, I have satan telling me that I am not good, smart, pretty, talented enough to do it. Dang that satan!

Anyway, I have been pouring out my heart to God. I feel kind of like Moses when God asked him to lead the children of Israel out of Egypt. Instead of saying "God, I stutter and the people wont listen to me" - I am saying, "God, I dont have enough knowledge and the people wont listen to me" (thankfully I dont stutter too).

I find that sometimes I am so vague with God - He knows my needs and desires, but I tend to withhold what I am truly thinking because of that. Sometimes I feel that He already knows what I want and need, so why bother Him with the details. Yesterday, He made it clear to me that it is not the devil that is in the details (as the old saying goes), but it is God who is concerned with details. As I prayed in generalizations, He spoke to my spirit saying, "Have you even read the Old Testament, do you know about the temple and how detailed I ordered it to be? ". It really woke me up to the fact that I am limiting God by saying I am not able. HE IS ABLE! Not only is He able to do more than I could have ever imagined, He would love to do miracles in my life. After all, if I were capable, wouldnt I love to work miracles in the lives of my children? (BTW, I know that I am totally incapable of miracles apart from Him).

If the God of the universe gave such explicit instructions for the Israelites in how to build the temple, why is it so hard to believe that He is concerned with the specific details of my life? And if God is leading me in a certain direction, why would He withhold the power for me to carry that 'project' out in His name and for His glory? He wouldn't. I was made for Him - made to bring Him glory. Why would He keep me from doing what He made me to do? He wouldn't. It is a difficult concept for me to grasp, but a truth that I need to grab hold of and run with. God is concerned with the details of my little seemingly insignificant life and He wants to do great and mighty things through me for His glory.

Lord, help me surrender to you in everything. Help me to speak specifically to you in prayer. Help me to realize that I have no power on my own, that my power lies in you, and that you are ALL-POWERFUL.


Earen said...

I really appreciate your blog. Your heart for the Lord & learning from Him is so encouraging! I agree with you so completely & try to look for the little things that God answers, but since I think they are so small in detail I don't think He cares...He does! We serve an amazing God!

Short Stop said...

Ohhh, that stirring in our hearts when He is working. It's amazing how strong it is, isn't it?

You are SO right...He cares so much about the details, and it's so comforting to know that we can trust Him that He will reveal them to us as He calls us to act. I have often felt that same stirring in my heart...that He had something for me, but just hadn't fully revealed it! I'm looking forward to reading as He continues to work in you! :)

Mari said...

I love this! Isn't it amazing that God even cares about the little details of our lives? I think about the way he created us and the world - minute little cells that when put together in just the right way are a baby, or a tree... We have an awesome God! I enjoyed reading your blog and will be back.

I'm Tara. said...

Well, I don't know what your project is, but you are wise to look to Him for not only guidance, but strength, encouragement and peace about the whole process of tackling something that feels overwhelming. I have no doubt that in Him you can do whatever it is you are feeling called to do.

BethAnne said...

thank you guys for your encouragement

MorningSong said...

What a great post! I can totally relate. I have been feeling a little unsettled, as though something is up in my spirit but I can't figure it out. I am reminded of Beth Moore's 'A Woman's Heart' Bible study by your reference to the temple details. Such a great thing to be reminded of - God IS in the details. Details are what God uses to get our attention.

Thanks for sharing your feelings and thanks for visiting my blog. It is good to know I am not alone in feeling this weird unsettling.


Alana said...

I'm always surprised when God answers my prayer in detail. I shouldn't be, but I am. It is a wonderful blessing, though, when it happens and I kick myself for not being more faithful. Praying and trusting that God will bless you as you step out in faith.